AJ McLean recollects first attempting coke earlier than Backstreet Boys video shoot

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AJ McLean recalls first trying coke before Backstreet Boys video shoot

AJ McLean has been fairly clear concerning his previous struggles with dependancy, lately opening up in regards to the first time he dared strive cocaine, revealing it was shortly earlier than he and his Backstreet Boys bandmates filmed a music video.

“I never really had a desire for the drugs, but being an addict — to me, that word encompasses everything,” McLean advised Folks. “I was introduced to cocaine literally the night that we shot the video for ‘The Call.’ It was the first time I ever tried it because it was a late-night shoot. I was with a ‘friend’ at the time — who’s clearly not a friend anymore — and they offered it to me. I said, ‘No.’ Then I caved and I did it.”

“The Call” was the second single launched from the group’s fourth studio album, “Black and Blue.”

The 42-year-old singer continued, “When I showed up on set and I got in the makeup chair, I told everybody. I was like, ‘I’m freaking out. I’m on this. I’m on that.’ They were like, ‘You need to stop. Don’t tell the world that you’re on drugs right now.’ Somehow someway, I kept it a secret from everyone for the next at least 18 months before the boys caught on, before my family caught on, before my real friends caught on. I found a way to really keep it under the rug.”

McLean went on to element his worsening habits, together with extreme consuming, including, “I thought drugs and alcohol would make those feelings of insecurity go away, but it doesn’t work that way.”

Finally, his group mates confronted him when issues bought uncontrolled.

“The most crucial part of that conversation was the final thing Kevin [Richardson] said to me: If I continued using, he said, ‘I will never trust you again. You’re dead to me.’”

AJ McLean with daughters, Ava and Lyric.
AJ McLean with daughters, Ava and Lyric.Instagram

Quickly after, he sought therapy, however would proceed to battle dependancy for nearly 20 years. In December 2019, nonetheless, a remark from his daughter set him straight after he returned house from a Vegas journey reeking of alcohol.

“But what really hit me was the moment, my youngest daughter Lyric said to me that night, ‘You don’t smell like my daddy.’ And when she said that to me, that was it. Enough said. I felt disgusting.”

The “Dancing with the Stars” contestant now attends day by day 12-step conferences on-line and checks in along with his sponsor six occasions a day.

“As hard as it is to say, I have zero regrets and am beyond lucky to still be here,” he added.” I can genuinely say I really like myself at this time.”

Filmy Online

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