- Make-up guru and YouTube star Nikkie de Jager, often known as NikkieTutorials to her tens of millions of subscribers, posted her first YouTube video since being robbed at gunpoint in her dwelling.
- The 26-year-old advised viewers that she was “okay,” however the incident had taken a toll on her psychological well being — and for each well being and authorized causes, she wouldn’t be revealing any particulars of the break-in.
- De Jager went on to movie a make-up tutorial for a Shade Reveal Barbie transformation, as make-up continues to be her outlet and a type of “remedy.”
- Within the video, the YouTube star thanked her followers for giving her area, love, and encouragement throughout a troublesome time.
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YouTube star and wonder guru Nikkie de Jager, often known as NikkieTutorials to her 13.5 million subscribers, is opening up about her emotional state following an armed theft in her dwelling. In her most up-to-date YouTube video titled “Letting you already know I am okay… Make-up Remedy,” the 26-year-old shared how she is dealing with the trauma of being held up at gunpoint.
“A few of you’ve adopted me for years, and if you happen to’ve adopted me for years, you already know that 2020 has been a trip,” de Jager stated within the clip earlier than tearing up and accumulating herself with some encouragement from behind the digicam. “In these years, I received to do among the most wonderful issues, but additionally shared a few of my darkest days with you.”
The YouTube star then defined the scenario: she and her fiancé Dylan Drossaers have been robbed at gunpoint of their dwelling within the Netherlands. Dutch information shops reported that not less than three folks have been concerned within the break-in, which occurred at round four p.m on August 8. Whereas de Jager stated she could not share particulars of the incident, as an investigation is ongoing, she wished her followers to know that she was “okay.”
Nonetheless, she defined, the traumatic incident took a toll and challenged her to reevaluate her priorities — particularly relating to her psychological well being.
“Having a type of worst nightmares come true could be very surreal, but it surely additionally places loads of issues in perspective. Now greater than ever, you notice that household is the whole lot. And being in good well being is much more necessary,” she stated. “So possibly, at some point, I am going to be capable of inform you the whole lot. However proper now, it is inconceivable for my psychological state.”
De Jager went on to say that make-up had at all times been a type of “remedy” and one thing that her attackers can not “take away,” so she would movie a whimsical color-reveal Barbie make-up tutorial, as deliberate.
“I must joke round to recover from this,” she defined.
All through the rest of the video, De Jager reworked herself right into a “human Barbie doll hybrid” — and joked about her scenario.
“The primary product I’ll go in with is, after all, primer as a result of to not prime — oh, God, mistaken timing — is against the law,” she stated, pausing.
Regardless of her constructive outlook, De Jager stated she nonetheless struggled to make sense of her scenario.
“It is gonna take loads of time for Dylan and myself and our household and associates to develop from this and to maintain going with life,” she stated, including that, to make issues worse, a buddy had not too long ago been identified with breast most cancers.
“It is like, when is it sufficient? When is life gonna be like, ‘Okay, you are good folks, this is some good issues?'” she puzzled.
To conclude the video, she expressed her appreciation for her followers’ assist and respect throughout a turbulent time.
“I need to thanks for being there for us. For giving us time. For respecting us and for having our backs. In life, a very powerful factor is well being, household, and friendships,” she stated. “I’m so past grateful to have the ability to sit in my studio right this moment and movie a model new video for you guys like nothing occurred.”
In simply at some point, the video racked up over 1,000,000 views and 1000’s of supportive feedback from followers.
“Why is 2020 being so horrible to our Nikkie?!??” one commenter wrote. “Whoever is in favour of pretending like this yr by no means occurred, elevate yah arms.”
The newest incident follows a turbulent yr for the YouTube star
De Jager made headlines in early 2020 after releasing an emotional YouTube video during which she got here out as transgender. The timing of the video, nonetheless, had not been her selection — early on within the video, she revealed that she had been blackmailed by somebody threatening to leak her story to the press.
“I’m right here to share with you one thing that I at all times wished to share with you at some point, however below my very own circumstances. It appears to be like like that probability has been taken away from me, so right this moment I’m taking again my very own energy,” she stated. “I do not want labels. If we’re gonna put a label on it, I am transgender. However on the finish of the day, I’m me.”
The video was met with a largely constructive response — de Jager’s fellow YouTube stars rallied round her and followers recommended her bravery and heralded her as “an inspiration.” She even appeared on “The Ellen Degeneres Present” the place the famed host, partnering with Shutterfly, made a $10,000 donation in de Jager’s identify to The Trevor Mission, a nonprofit devoted to suicide prevention for LGBTQ youth.
Regardless of the nice and cozy response, de Jager later defined, her popping out expertise had not been a fairytale.
In April, she advised the Dutch publication &C that her expertise with Ellen DeGeneres had not been as welcoming because it appeared on digicam.
“Name me naive, however I form of anticipated to be welcomed with confetti cannons: ‘Welcome to The Ellen DeGeneres Present!’ However, as an alternative, I used to be greeted by an indignant intern who was a bit overworked. I used to be anticipating a Disney present, however received Teletubbies after darkish,” she stated of the expertise. “Each visitor at Ellen’s had a personal bathroom, however I did not. I used to be not allowed to make use of the closest bathroom, as a result of it was reserved for the Jonas Brothers. ‘Why do they get a personal bathroom,’ I assumed. However in the long run, my merchandise had eight million views afterwards and theirs two million, ha!”
De Jager additionally advised the publication that she’d struggled emotionally since being blackmailed into popping out — and she or he was identified with post-traumatic stress dysfunction (PTSD) quickly after releasing the video.
“All my signs point out in direction of PTSD,” she stated. “All I can do is give myself time to offer it a spot, [the doctor] stated. So I strive that, though it’s nonetheless troublesome at occasions.”